Anzu's Napping Time

A wonderful day. A day ended with tears but it was tears of hapiness. For how long that I didn't feel like I could enjoy myself that much? together with Nao_ni and Gan_chan danced on stage, then went to haunted house and the tea ceremoni togerther, was it a dream that I could spend all day with them? Tobe able to forget about other things and jus went on enjoying ourselves, isn't it wonderful? Time passes but such memory is something unforgettable. How could I forget this feeling when I open my cellphone and read Naoni email. He replied my poorly written email (due too my terrible Japanses)so kindly. Although it was just a casual email, I brusted into tears. Why did I cry? I am not sure. Because I was too happy, because thinking of today, and because thinking of tomorrow. How would I be when thay graduate and leave? After all that telling myself this and that, I am still not that strong. I will still feel sad everytime thinking of it. But maybe it is ok. For me, being able to laugh right now is important. Naoni once said he likes strong girls. May be I will let myself cry now and then but in the end, I will still smile and be strong.

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Tomorrow, tomorrow wil be a very important day for me. Tomorrow wil be the first time I could dance with Nao_ni and Gan-chan on the same stage. I could I express my feeling now? It too overwhelm, too excited. Tomorrow will be the first time, and, maybe, the last time. Both Nao-ni and Gan-chan will be graduating soon. This would be their last event here at APU. Thinking of it, I wanna cry. But I must not. What is the point of crying? What is the point of worrying and being sad about something that haven't happen yet? I wanna cry, but I wanna smile and laugh even more. I wanna enjoy the time that I could spend with them till the very last. Why did I meet them so late? Why is it that I only given 1 chance to dance with them? I asked those questions. But then, I just realized being able to know them, to become their kouhai, to be taught by them is my happiness. Why should I be whining for when I am blessed with such hapiness. Being able to get on stage and dance with them in such a grand event like tomorrow is far more than what I could ask for. For me, those two are like big brothers. The time left is short. After this month, maybe both will be busy with senior's thesist and evrything; maybe there will be notime left for playing around with us kids, but I will enjoy the time we are having now as much as possible. Even until the day of graduation, I would still be happy and enjoy seeing them. I would not be sad and thinking of parting from them. Why? I read somwhere a person said that "Life is like a rollercoster. When you ride a roller coster, why is it that you enjoy it so much? The reason for you to enjoy it is that you know it will end in 4 or 5 minutes. Because you know that, you are able to enjoy it. If you keep worrying that it would end, there will be notime to enjoy." Read More......