I'm so cold right now, though it's just the beginning of Autumn, and my sweater... I guess it's too short to cover all of my body >"<. So cold. Wonder how I will pass the winter coming up....
I'm waiting for my coming back to home too. Finally, nee? "Home is always calling your name" that the line in some song I dont remember. It's just I've been waiting for everyday in almost 5 months with hope and cruelty and hope and cruelty and hope... the never-ending circle, and this time just nothing will be the problem anymore. Kami-sama, I really wait for this. Look like I'm about to banana, XD. You went to somewhere else far away from home, far away from everybody so dear to you, just it. And even if you are a very cold person, it still aches your pain many times when thinking about the original, where you are belonging to...
I bet Autumn here, in my new place, is very beautiful. It's a pity that I wont be able to see it. But that's okay, really really okay, because finally I can come home. I still can see the 4 seasons next year, the next 2 year, the next 3 year, but I wont know when I can see my home again next time... Uhm, sad for a while... Some times I wonder what if I never see it again, or it'll be such a long time... Recently I often dreamed that I went to the airport and met the one I really love, the admiring love. We had such fun, I even got his signature and held his hand to my home, thinking where I should let him sleep, my room, the guest room, or wherever else... XD, that was really such a lovable dream to me... going out with my love for one day :)) that the second time I dreamed sth like that :)) (Even called out his name loudly at the Korean International Airport :)) <-- she even knew that was Korean International Airport :))). The other dream was about losing my passport to a ... Canadian guy... and I and Ran went to his sanctuary, then I knew he had already sold it to an ugly chinese girl (gomen nasai). Then I slapped him like crazy and shout 'Do you know how long I long for the day to come home?'... nearly killed him... though he's big as a bear... ack... That's it, dreaming about coming back, though those were weird, super weird... XD
Today I have internet, and get to see my dear computer again, and already hide what I should hide on there, XD. Tonight is cold and I was really frozen outside >"<>"< One can may not be a mess... I'll try...
Recently Ran started to like my love like I'm liking him. XD. We talked much about this and laughed like idiots about this too. Many called him weird, many talked bad about him in front of us, but that's just made us like him more. XD. That's called the opposite effect ^ ^ And liking someone can makes someone else happy XD (start to be banana...) "I wish" that was a cute song... Was it happy? I didnt think so. What about sadness? I didnt think so too... Was it about 'a wish'? I didnt know. But the definite feeling I earned from that was really special, like someone waiting for sth, looking at some dear thing with their own eyes, and still looking, and smiling unintendedly, and I felt some aches inside me... Dont know how... And the feeling of admiring, for a little one standing in front of many many, so many, that made me happy, for many to be loving one, for one to be standing there... that's just... special... The little prince standing in the sea of crowd, smiling... ah, I'm starting my sickness again... you dont need to listen to an idiot like me at all... I just need Ran to know ^ ^ Dear Ran. Still working on your essays, ka? Otanjobi Omedetou! I sent it, finally!
It's cold, and I'm catching it. Start to be crazy and talking with the up side down voice... Though it's weird but I like it, sound like the true English accent ^ ^" Oh ss, how is your hands?!? For you I'm really a bugging-non-stop, nee? Gomen ^ ^"
Suddenly I start to like to repeat 'precious' and 'pathetic' with the exact pronunciation (always wrong) of them. Maybe that's the effect from hearing Yuna Ito... Someone told me I might not find a husband for watching cartoon and comics at the end of 17-year-old.
Ah, I'm listening to "The gate of dawn" from Secret Garden, I like that one too, emotionally indeed. Do you like Fall? With all its picturesque views ^ ^ That's the good thing, nee? ^ ^ Today is a day of talking nonsense...
Anzu suddenly feels love you!